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so i have this friend. he was my bf's best friend, and become one of mine too. he is a very kind and generous guy, and i really do care about him.

but i hate hate hate his attitude towards women.

i happened to know that he is a player. he was, is and maybe will always be. one of my best friends was fell victim to him many years ago. and since then, i never believe in him (in relation of women, of course). he used to chat with me about women, nights via yahoo messenger. but i made it clear that i do not want, ever, help him stack more women in his charade.

just recently one of my friend was involved in a not-bf-gf-relationship-but-we-are-together sort of relationship with him. and it didn't go rainbows and unicorns. one of the reason it didn't work was his other women. i feel bad for her, but i know that she knew what she's get into. they were friends, in the same circle of friends, lovers and exes.

oh right, haven't i mention that our circle was so small basically everybody in some point taking turn dating with each other? i called it "the circle of evil". back when i was in college, i never dated anyone from my college, especially my faculty. well i am now, but at least we were already graduated, so the circle was not that suffocating anymore. (but that circle of exes still haunts me sometimes..well, i'm just human.. an emo one in particular)

back to my friend's story. so she knew what was she's gotten into. and now she's hurt. and i feel sorry for her, but i can't understand, why she let herself in that position. i know she's quitting now, and i applaud her for that. i know that quitting on someone you love never easy.

and my hatred of his attitude towards women getting worse. his actions lately so unspeakable, i feel hurt as a woman just to watch it. even if this mess did not involve my friends, i will still feel hurt and disgusted. i called him crazy one night, and he replied by saying "i never ask them to do anything" as he grinned, apparently he never think that what he did could hurt anyone. and i said, not only you, but those women are crazy too. and i stormed off.

as a woman, i hate him and his attitude. i hate his kind of man.
but as a friend, i do care about him. and sometimes i wonder if what he did was just because he haven't found that one woman he could really love. and i still wish that he will find her, and not too late.

as for you, girl..i wish you all the best, and you too, will find someone who really deserves you :)

and i feel very very lucky that i fell for my bf instead of him...

hi. i create this blog because i need to talk.
i am no one, i just need to share my words.